Our computer caught a virus last week, so I've been unable to write here, check email, catch up on Facebook and other things I like to do on the computer. I have been able to use my phone, but it just isn't the same. Honestly, I won't write an email on my phone because it takes too long. Plus, my phone is having it's own issues lately, so I feel a bit disconnected. During this, my husband has worked long hours, and has come home to try to fix the computer issues. All of our microsoft office is wiped out, and he's been trying to reinstall it. It has been a long wait.
"...but they who wait for the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings like eagles;
they shall run and not be weary;
they shall walk and not faint." Isaiah 40:31
I was reminded of waiting this morning. My 4 year old goes to preschool on Tuesday, Wednesday and Thursday. Every morning, he runs up to the doors and swings it wide open and holds it until everyone he can see has entered. Most mornings I rush him saying "that's enough" or "let's go" or "hurry". It's usually because mommy has things to do, people to see, places to go because I'm just that "important".
This morning, though, God quickened in my heart that I needed to learn from Jacob's servant heart. Too often, I'm so caught up in my own little world that I can't see the world around me that needs more servants. Jacob is naturally wild and funny, exuberant is probably a good word to describe this boy. He loves fully and is the most confident little boy I know.
I realized this morning that I am an instrument in the Father's hands as a mother. He has given this child to me, not only for me to teach and train him, but also for me to learn and grow from watching him. God's hand is on Jacob. I don't want to be so busy moving and going that I get too impatient or just plain forget to wait. Waiting is not just sitting around doing nothing. Waiting is also serving. The definition of wait is "to stay in place in expectation of" and "to serve". My prayer is that my heart will lean toward waiting both in service and expectation.
Father, thank you for lessons in our daily life. Help us to keep our eyes open for you moving day to day all around us. Help us to see where you are teaching and correcting us and to make the right changes in our own lives to live more fully in you. Thank you for giving us new hope and renewal of expectation in you. Thank you for giving me my children and for using them to teach me when I need to lean into you more. I pray that you would create in me a clean heart, and renew the right spirit within me. Thank you for loving me so much to give me a lively boy such as Jacob. In Jesus Name, Amen!
