Taste and See

It's baaaack!  Well, technically it was back last week, but I missed it completely.  Five Minute Friday time again, and I'm stepping in this week with a little hesitance.  We write for five minutes flat, no editing, no backtracking.  Just write.  You can check all the other bloggers out HERE.  Today's word prompt is SEE.

My first thought when I saw the word "see" was the word prompt was "Taste and see that the Lord is good."  Psalm 34:8  I've memorized scripture since I was 5 years old.  By the time I was a teenager, I could quote scripture better than I could any subject in school.  

I'm at a time in my life where I'm wondering what's next.  What's next, God?  That question is two-fold.  What's next for my life/my story, and what's going to happen next.  My father-in-law passed away a month ago, followed by my Aunt two weeks later.  In between, Christmas happened, and I mean, it just happened.  There really wasn't a celebration for what it was truly about.  It was just "let's get through this, and make sure the kids are happy" on my part.

I'm pushing back against depression, and it's hard to see that the Lord is good when you're eyes are blurry.  Vision gets skewed when you haven't spent time in His word.  I haven't.  It's hard to feel deep down inside that He's really in control, and it's all going to be okay.  It's like being stuck on the spin cycle in the washing machine, out of control.  

The rest of that scripture says "Blessed is the man who takes refuge in Him."  So, even if I'm not feeling like I can see what He's doing, where my place is, what's next, I will choose to take refuge in Him.  When I can't see these hard things as the Lord being good, I will put my trust in Him and take refuge in Him.  

This will put me a little over my 5 minutes, but I need it today.  Here is the definition of refuge:  shelter or protection from danger or distress; a place that provides shelter or protection.  When my vision becomes cloudy, I will find protection and shelter in Him.  I choose to run to Him.

Father, thank you for providing protection and shelter for me, even when I can't see you are there.  I thank you that you go deeper still.  Your love reaches deeper than any place I might go, or when I feel to far away to reach.  I will choose to taste and see that you are good, and I will put my trust in you.  In Jesus Name, Amen!